I have a part-time position as a dispatcher. I have had this position for years. I have had many jobs during the duration of this job. I have tried full-time here, but it didn’t feel right. With the recent events of my strange last interview, I decide that I should try a full-time position with this company again.
One day a coworker admits to me that he is quitting. His shift isn’t great. It is an evening shift, but it is a secure shift for anyone who masters it. The moment my coworker tells me about this, I feel as if I have to attempt it. I eventually decide to email our boss and tell him I am interested.
Eventually, he emails me back and we set up an interview. The competition is fierce. Several of my coworkers are applying for the position, and we all know about each other’s ambitions. I still go ahead with attempt.
A couple weeks pass as I battle in my head if I should actually attempt this position. I have not even decided if I would like being there full-time again. I didn’t really like it when I had done it before in two other positions. I keep my stance and make plans for the interview.
The interview day comes and I meet with my boss. I have known him for years, so I feel comfortable. He is a good boss. He is a good conversationalist and a person who is easy to like. We make jokes and talk during the interview. It passes by too quickly. He asks basic questions and we are done.
I leave at the same time one of my coworkers is pulling up. I remember thinking that he deserves that job more than me. He needs it whereas I just want it to escape. I want out of the life I am living, and I see this as an out.
I was in a dead-end situation. I am still slowly working myself out of the situation. I am slowly moving from the person I thought I was to the person I always wanted to be. I was miserable and I was looking for any way to get out. That was my only reason for this job. I didn’t really like the prospect. I didn’t like the hours. I didn’t really like the things the company was doing.
I forced myself to ignore that and think positive. I got in my car drove home and continued to think about the things I was missing.
Later on, I find out that I luckily didn’t get that job. The company was only looking for the lowest bidder. I wasn’t going to lower my standards — for once. Dispatching is a stressful job and my belief was the pay should match the stress. They found someone who believed otherwise and slowly began to cut their nose, despite their face. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I was very lucky not to get that shift. It gave me the painstaking opportunity to pursue my dreams.
The lesson to be learned here? It is easy to do what you always do. It is easy to stay stagnant. It is much, much harder to change your path. It is very hard to follow your dreams.