As we all get older we look back and think about what we could have or would have done differently in the past, if given the chance. Here, I write a letter to my 19 year old self to reassure and encourage myself through tough times in college; a time where I was trying to find myself and did not quite know where to begin.
Dear 19 year old Elle,
You are smart enough to know what you want and you go for it. When times start getting too hard you let outside opinions affect your judgment, which will lead to you letting go of a dream you have had for a long time. My advice to you, seek only the opinions of those closest to you and then still weigh your options and its outcome. Take the time to plan and prepare for the future; you cannot ride the wave too far without preparation. Ask for help when you need it; going to school full time and working part time (with full time hours) is going to be hard. Once you become more confident in yourself there is nothing that can stand in your way. You will eventually accomplish your goal and for that I am proud of you.
You were born a twin. Do not let that become your identity. You will become paralyzed into thinking you have to be dependent on your other half to get through life. She will independently maneuver through life freely and you will become staggered because you are afraid; afraid of failing, afraid of rejection, and afraid of hard work because things always happen so easily for you. Once you put yourself out there you make things happen, amazing opportunities arise, and you meet new and wonderful people. FYI: you will meet your future husband by taking this risk!! Start now!!
Keep Your Values
As far as relationships, keep being who you are; honest, loving, and unselfish. You will encounter a few jerks that will not understand nor value the maturity you will bring to the relationship. Their lost, not yours. And that phase of you trying to be the heart breaker… Stop it, you are bad at it. Look at it this way; you have to kiss a few frogs to recognize your prince. Hint Hint: Your Prince Charming IS out there waiting for you!!
You have always had the ability to succeed and become more. Do not let a few uncertainties stop you from achieving your goals. Put yourself out there and you will make it happen. You have a good head on your shoulders kid; your life turns out Great!
Elle from the future