It started about 7 years ago. I had an accident in the kitchen that left me cut down to the bone on three fingers. I remember bits and pieces of this incident, including the rush in cold to hot body heat, heart palpitations, and passing out a few times. The next two years that followed were mixed with near hospitalizations of being ill with pneumonia, and pains in what felt like the valves of my heart, whenever I got too cold. I was very dizzy and lightheaded, and my heart would beat so fast, feel like it would sink in to my stomach and would make me nauseous and want to instantly go to sleep.
Sometimes there are pains in my neck and chest that feel like there is something stuck trying to push its way through a vein/artery. They were/are unsystematic sometimes occurring multiple times a day and sometime not occurring for weeks at a time. There is not one common denominator that brings them on, they just occur. In the last two or so years it has brought with it numbness and tingling in my fingers up through my elbows, major night sweats, like I am fighting off a fever, and sporadic nights where I wake up feeling as though I have not been or cannot bring myself to breathe, like my mind is awake and thinking, but it cannot get my body to respond.
My partner kept getting mad at me for not making an appointment to see a doctor. We fought about it for years. I am in my 20’s so the idea of heart problems, or other older adult diagnosis/issues seemed unrealistic to me. I told him I believed it to be the result of stress I did not process correctly. It was not until October of last year, when over the course of three nights the above issues all occurred at once, multiple times during the night, and woke up my partner in the process. Prior to that he had slept through it. But it scared him and I so bad I made the appointment the next day.
It started with my primary care physician and x-rays and lab work, then I was sent to two specialists. They checked my thyroid, blood pressure, and other blood tests, which turned up I had low blood pressure and low iron. All else was with in normal standards. And EKG was done a few times due to irregularities, but nothing was consistent enough to pinpoint a direct issue. I had a heart monitor on for 24 hours, and still nothing that was significant enough to red flag. Looking at the idea that it could just be due to stress, I have taken time out during each day to stretch and/or meditate, to try to bring down my stress levels to a manor my body can better handle. But no diagnosis ever came of it. The issues still occur, in the same unsystematic frequency. I will continue to be monitored yearly, but nothing was given to help the issues. And it is scary not to know, because what if I do black out while driving, or go to bed and not wake up?
The tingling and numbness, however, after testing became a separate issue. My ulnar nerve (think funny bone) had slipped between the bone, and the protective coating was wearing off and it was being pinched when my arms were in certain positions. After a nerve test was done, it confirmed that at some point I will have to have surgery to move them, as the response in my pinky and ring finger was not as good as the rest of my hand and arm, it was not to a point for which is brought on pain, so it was better to deal with it and wait it out. I was given stretches so as to not lose strength in my latter fingers, and told to try to sleep with my arms straight.
I am a deep believer that the human body communicates issues; that mental/emotional issues can also manifest in to physical issues, but deciphering and pinpointing the cause remains a puzzle that cannot yet be assembled, by me, nor my physicians.