Happiness is what all humans are striving for, but in most cases it has been searched for in wrong direction – outside, in external sources: power, money, property, drugs, fame. We need decades of experiences, useful work and change of attitude to find out at the end that the source of happiness has always been with us – our hearts. To come to this realization it took me 45 years and I would like to share some of my insights – just another testimony about the power of love.
When I review my life I clearly see that in all cases I have been happy there has been at least one more being on the other end. And happiness has always resulted from the love flowing between the hearts of humans involved. I can define two different situations when happiness occurs and will illustrate them with examples from my life.
Give/Help and share situation – we give or share with somebody in need at the right time
With my wife, we were traveling through one of the poorest countries in Central America. One day, while waiting at the buss station in small provincial town, we went in the food mart nearby to change some money and buy something to eat. When we were back outside I saw a small boy sleeping on the ground. He looked tired and hungry and I approached him quietly, put some money in his shirt pocket and walked away. I have only made a few dozens steps when suddenly I was “hit” by wave of bliss from heaven. The flow of love through my body was so tremendous that tears came into my eyes. I lost my body awareness and my heart started dancing like crazy. I believe that other people may have also experienced such condition and they know what I am talking about, because I lack words to fully describe it. But I also know, from my talks to other people, that many never had such love experiences in their lives. This means that something is missing – opening for God. To attract love and happiness we need to be open for God. It is like in electricity – closed circuit with source. And we need first to create happiness in others in order to get it back to us.
Receive situation – we receive love from another being
In the previous years I failed to be real father for my daughters and make them happy. These were some of the most tormenting memories from my past that were coming back again and again. It happened that our younger daughter “died” from leukemia in the summer of 2005. I never missed her, but I really missed the many occasions in the past when I failed to make her happy and did not love her enough or at all. You can imagine how miserable I felt when those memories were coming back to me. And there was nothing I could do to repair the emotional damages that I caused in the past, because the person was not there anymore. After a while, however, she started to visit me every now and then, in the middle of the day, and to love me – true love from angel. But not only this – she started also coming during my sleep hours in my “dreams”. Why? To give me the chance to live again through all those opportunities to play and be happy with her as a small child. And we play and love each other and we are happy. Really happy.
As conclusion, my answer to where happiness comes from is: Happiness comes from inside, from our hearts and from the hearts of all others we have made happy and who love us. Happiness is the result of God love – our being and eternal fortune.